i'm waiting for the day
That I can stop waiting for another day
I'm sorry to be discontent
and i feel like my life is outliving me
like things are just happening
and I'm sort of watching
out of my peripheral

And i'm sorry
i feel ashamed
but that is where I am at the moment
I want to be done with the work
I'm ready for a rest
I've worked hard
And I just want to skip over the rest
Are we there yet?

I'm not sure who I am
Where I stand
What is this rock
Beneath my feet?
Why does it suddenly seem
So unstable?

I haven't noticed that much
I find myself sitting
Wondering when the clock
Will allow me on to the next thing
Maybe I'm hoping the next thing
Will bring me closer
To rest.